Happy new year!
Still can't believe that my year started incredibly crappy. Where should I start?
Another 10 days passed. I have been taking all the initiative in hanging out, which was very unusual of me. Anyway, I thought there is always a first time for everything. But it turned out that, he will never make the first move. So it's always gonna be me.
The details of what's going on was not worthwhile to record. However, I have to admit that I am naive enough not to see the dual personality of a person. The whole scenario brought me nothing but disappointment.
How can a masculine, serious, caring and responsible person turned out to be a childish and self-centred mama's boy?
The first day of 2010, my eyes were opened. Frustration was like haemoglobin, travelling around my body. You know what? I don't wanna talk about this anymore because this could be the most ridiculous relationship happened in my life, ever. Wait... let's not even call it a relationship because there was zero communication between us. Also, twenty days passed since the first day he grabbed my hand into his palm, he still refused to kiss me. Not considering this as a relationship, but a huge joke. What an experience!
Thursday, December 31, 2009
Monday, December 21, 2009
A joke
Started from Dec 11, 2009 until today. It has been 10 days. I am starting to believe that God is making a huge joke with me. HE fulfilled my hope of having a relationship. But... there is always a but..... It really turned to something unpleasant, in only 10 days.
I can't help myself but ask, was that me who had too much fantasy about this? Thought the beginning of a relationship should be the sweetest in the entire time. Something like.. you can see no one else but him in this world. Something like... time is passing too fast that you don't think you have spent enough time with him. Something like... you feel like the luckiest person on earth because you have him.
What on earth is happening? We were just as plain as water, with zero compassion
I can't help myself but ask, was that me who had too much fantasy about this? Thought the beginning of a relationship should be the sweetest in the entire time. Something like.. you can see no one else but him in this world. Something like... time is passing too fast that you don't think you have spent enough time with him. Something like... you feel like the luckiest person on earth because you have him.
What on earth is happening? We were just as plain as water, with zero compassion
Thursday, December 10, 2009
miss granny
I saw Grandma in my dream the other day. She was sitting there, a lil bit different from before. Without any delay, I ran over and gave her a big hug. I miss her sooooo much...