Congratulations Baby! You have achieved a faster time of catching a cold. From sore throat to runny nose, it only took half of a day. Your body has a very rapid rate of mechanism, except the immune system. Now I am piritonized.
Evan and I went for a movie on Saturday night, after the afternoon game at Kowloon Bay. We watched the Pirates of the Carribean. It doesn't matter what movie we watched, it's the reason why I called him up that matters. He probably knew before arriving to the Element. At Haagen Dazs, I finally exploded. Talking about the crappy life lately, including the lost game again, he agreed that I probably should leave to T.O. My tears were shed like a river at that very moment. I am not sure if it's because I feel there's a person standing by me, or if it's because the situation is worse to a level that I won't be able to survive here. I just cried. And super super thanks to Evan who let me cry in his embrace.
Tonight I went for the Beginners II class at Columbus. After two months, we met again. It felt a bit weird at the beginning, but afterwards, I was probably too busy to catch up with the class without thinking too much. It went okay, at least on my side. It felt like I was in the second or third lesson in Beginners I. JD is the teacher, nothing less, nothing more. The class ended and I left. The end. There weren't much eye contact between us. I can feel the reluctancy for making eye contact. It's still okay. The situation will become better after he got familiar with the situation. Hey, I asked him in advance if he's okay. He said no problem.
His cast was removed but the wrist was a bit swollen. I was so tempted to give him a quick screen on his wrist, but I held back. Guess he wouldn't want me to do that.
But I am so glad to see him smiling all the time. At least he seems happy even though he probably suffers a bit after work. Thank God for being with him and stay with him for his difficult time. My prayers work, for once. Mucho Gracias Padre >3<
Tuesday, May 31, 2011
Thursday, May 26, 2011
Met Anna
After stepping out of the scene for a month, I accidentally found out that JD was suffered from Colles fracture since a month ago, and he was put on a POP. At the moment I was a bit mad because it seemed like blessings were not sent to him, and he hasn't been taking good care of himself. A phonecall was made to make sure he was doing fine even with the cast. Thank God he was okay. And I continued to step out of the scene.
Sunday night, Anna found out that I moved back to HK a couple of years ago. We decided to meet up even though it was almost 1 on a Monday morning. It's like we haven't met forever. She got married several months ago, probably wasn't able to contact me back then. S'okay. Most importantly, our conversation expanded to the lifestyle in HK and North America. Many Hongers immigrated to North America 10+ years ago and moved back. Somehow they blend into the community here and beome a typical Honger. That's one thing I have been avoiding myself to do. Agitated, impatient, critical, nonstop complain, materialistic, money oriented...... I would love myself not to gain any of those characters.
And now, as I have mentioned in my previous entries, it seems like God had closed 99% of the doors available in mylife. Family is not so harmonic. Faith is weak. Work is shitty. Relationship is none. Volleyball is crap. The idea of moving back to Toronto appeared frequently in my mind lately. Is that what YOU want me to do? I bet eh?
One have got to have a plan before any action. So, I should get myself more prepared before heading there. There are several courses I need to take to survive financially when I head to Toronto for the first year. Clinical Pilates, fitball & personal training are courses I aim at. Working at a personal trainer, I should take the first year to study and get myself prepared for the licensing exam in Canada. Sounds like a plan eh?
Accommodation will be made at either Mike's, Lisa's, or Uncle Herbert's. Edwin's place will be good choice as well. Hopefully everything can work out fine if the status is not gonna changed.
Once I told Paul gor gor about my idea, he joked around,"What am I gonna do after you leave? Have you thought about me? Can I be a person who makes you stay? Will you stay because of me?" He is such a sweet sweet brother. I like him so much because he really does care about me, his little sis.
Sunday night, Anna found out that I moved back to HK a couple of years ago. We decided to meet up even though it was almost 1 on a Monday morning. It's like we haven't met forever. She got married several months ago, probably wasn't able to contact me back then. S'okay. Most importantly, our conversation expanded to the lifestyle in HK and North America. Many Hongers immigrated to North America 10+ years ago and moved back. Somehow they blend into the community here and beome a typical Honger. That's one thing I have been avoiding myself to do. Agitated, impatient, critical, nonstop complain, materialistic, money oriented...... I would love myself not to gain any of those characters.
And now, as I have mentioned in my previous entries, it seems like God had closed 99% of the doors available in mylife. Family is not so harmonic. Faith is weak. Work is shitty. Relationship is none. Volleyball is crap. The idea of moving back to Toronto appeared frequently in my mind lately. Is that what YOU want me to do? I bet eh?
One have got to have a plan before any action. So, I should get myself more prepared before heading there. There are several courses I need to take to survive financially when I head to Toronto for the first year. Clinical Pilates, fitball & personal training are courses I aim at. Working at a personal trainer, I should take the first year to study and get myself prepared for the licensing exam in Canada. Sounds like a plan eh?
Accommodation will be made at either Mike's, Lisa's, or Uncle Herbert's. Edwin's place will be good choice as well. Hopefully everything can work out fine if the status is not gonna changed.
Once I told Paul gor gor about my idea, he joked around,"What am I gonna do after you leave? Have you thought about me? Can I be a person who makes you stay? Will you stay because of me?" He is such a sweet sweet brother. I like him so much because he really does care about me, his little sis.
Sunday, May 15, 2011
Life... goes on
Life goes on, even though I didn't want it to be that way. I haven't contacted him for more than a month. It didn't feel good. I want to know how he is doing, and sincerely want him to tell me that everything is good. At the bottom of my heart, I still care about him, a lot. But then guess one need to take care of my feelings. Getting away from the scenerio seems to be the best way to bring myself back to the right track.
Because my prayers still always include him and his life, it actually draws me closer to God these days. I prayed more often, more sincerely, and have a closer relationship with God. Think this is His plan, between me and Him.
Work hasn't been changed a lot. There will be a new senior starting from tomorrow. Even though I didn't wanna admit, I did get a bit more mature than before. Thomas PaPa encourages me a lot, and gives me advice most of the time. Many Many thanks to Thomas PaPa.
Today I was thinking. Life is so short, Hang in there, you only have 30-40 years to go. It's tough, but it will be over soon. Hang in there.
And then I thought, life is short. I should enjoy every bit of it. But then Jordi's voice echoes in my brain, "你好蠢呀! There are so many things to be happy in life, why spend time to be upset?" "你再唔開心我打你呀!"
Because my prayers still always include him and his life, it actually draws me closer to God these days. I prayed more often, more sincerely, and have a closer relationship with God. Think this is His plan, between me and Him.
Work hasn't been changed a lot. There will be a new senior starting from tomorrow. Even though I didn't wanna admit, I did get a bit more mature than before. Thomas PaPa encourages me a lot, and gives me advice most of the time. Many Many thanks to Thomas PaPa.
Today I was thinking. Life is so short, Hang in there, you only have 30-40 years to go. It's tough, but it will be over soon. Hang in there.
And then I thought, life is short. I should enjoy every bit of it. But then Jordi's voice echoes in my brain, "你好蠢呀! There are so many things to be happy in life, why spend time to be upset?" "你再唔開心我打你呀!"
Thursday, May 5, 2011
Tears WIPED
Even though nothing has changed since whenever unfortunate events started to happen, I haven't been crying since my last sacrament of reconciliation, where I terribly lost control in the oratory. It's been a little more than a week. I became a little stronger. But then it doesn't mean that Lord You don't have to show thy appearance around me.
So, in the upcoming month, there will be a drastic change in my team again. This change is not considered as a preferrable one, as usual. All the best to everyone who's involved. I am not going to ask You again when catastrophe discontinues. Because You are challenging my limits, my faith, my patience and the size of my cross.
Special blessings continuously to the one I care much, I still care much. Even though I kinda know that this is it, not going to change anymore. Should take care of the issue once I think I am confident enough to handle this again without tears. Thanks Lord for taking good care of him and be with him always.
So, in the upcoming month, there will be a drastic change in my team again. This change is not considered as a preferrable one, as usual. All the best to everyone who's involved. I am not going to ask You again when catastrophe discontinues. Because You are challenging my limits, my faith, my patience and the size of my cross.
Special blessings continuously to the one I care much, I still care much. Even though I kinda know that this is it, not going to change anymore. Should take care of the issue once I think I am confident enough to handle this again without tears. Thanks Lord for taking good care of him and be with him always.