Relaxation nonstop

Two days of holiday passed too quickly.

I spent the first day by shopping around one of my most enjoyable store, IKEA. This store always creates the most relaxing, comfy and cozy atmosphere. The living rooms demonstrate the smart use of small space. The bedrooms can definitely lead me to my sweetest dreams. The children's corners remind me of the "do watever" childhood. Sleeping in a tent is the desire of every kid..... hehe.... I spent some time in there. The kitchens are clean and equiped. The reading rooms are full of the smell of books, making me want to read.

Surprisingly, I spent quite some time in the accessory area, looking at the lamps. Right, I wanted to get a comfy nite lamp. Dim yellow light will be my choice, or white light with ground glass surrounded, or simply blue light to extract my silly dreams up in the air.

The second day of holiday was another relaxing shopping day on the street. I was trying to look for a more feminine schedule with lots of free space to write. As I cherish all of my inspirations, they should be written down and memorized. So that I know how stupid I could be sometimes.

I went to JSC to support the men's soccer team tonight. Mr Mok and I asked my about my future. He talked about a sensitive topic with me, and I refused to express my very own thought, as usual, as I myself refuse to think about it.

Although there may be someone on the other side of the earth, who knows what's going to happen in all these days? Who can predict the future? I have to admit that I am being pretty hopeless in this aspect. But it doesn't seem like there is anything I could do about it.

Therefore, I should just enjoy my life as much as possible and stop making myself nervous about this issue every single day.

A day of relaxation

All of a sudden, I love my life again.

Social assistance?

Finally, I am back in here and talk to myself. These days, I experienced the real meaning of exhaustion. The average time of being home is 6 hours/day, which is occupied by the sleep. I haven't seen my dad for the whole weekend.

The naive girl finally comes out to the world and realizes the dirty side of human beings. I thought I have gone through this stage a very long time ago.

Social assistance is a very good idea to provide support for people who are poor. They may lose their ability to work due to aging or accident. Elderlies take it because they give to the society when they were young, therefore they receive when they get old. It's unfortunate for people who has accidents so they receive the financial social support.

There are people in this society who takes advantage of the resources from the government which is supposed to be providing for the poor. They have the ability to earn a living but they decide to receive social assistance. Additionally, they make use of this type of assistance to gain free service from the hospital authority. In this way, people who truly need the service will have their space always occupied by them, who just want to get free lunch.

When you ask them about the progression, they still always complain about pain because they are afraid to be discharged.

I finally have a discussion with Mr Fung today about this issue. He totally changed the way I see things. This little girl right here may be depressed because of this type of atmosphere. The solution of this is to set up my own schedule and leave them no choice.

Lesson learned: Have to ask them if they are receiving social assistance and find out their intentions of being here.

Moment of realization: people who receive CSSA, they will never go away.

Thought I am naive no more, found out I am still naive.

Hate to be stressful

Stress can easily suppress my immune system. Lack of rest can futher suppress my immune system. Feels like being defeated soon, very soon.

• Oct 4th - Eugenia's wedding
• Oct 5th - Visit Grandma + PPRC + FYP meeting
• Oct 6th - Complementary course + meet with Paul & Ceci
• Oct 7th - Do the presentation
• Oct 8th - Dinner with friend (Don't get me wrong, I love this)
• Oct 9th - Volleyball practice
• Oct 10th - finally gets a break.... probly gonna do the presentation
• Oct 11th - Vball match for JCC
• Oct 12th - Onfield service for Soccer M
• Oct 13th - Complementary course
• Oct 14th - DAY OF PRESENTATION
• Oct 15th - FYP meeting

What the ....... ??

Is everything gonna turn out okay?

Another week

The midterm feedback was no surprise. Poor time management. Cora totally understands me LOL. She suggested me to stop talking to the patients so that I can get my job done within time limit.

Conclusion: I talked too much.

Sunday is always good day. I went to the beach with the KATSO brothers and sisters for BBQ. We had so much fun together although it took us a long time to get the food and stuff. Under the starry night, we sat on the beach and talked about our future. Long has plans of being a nurse for only 5 years. And I .... couldn't make up my mind what the heck I am going to do after I graduate.

I told Long about him. He's supportive, and trying to protect me all the time.

But today, I really had a hard time to keep up. Feels like standing at the centre of a crossroad, sometimes I am too tired to be courageous all the time. At that very moment, thinking about the blurred future, there was an sms from him. My tears dropped.

When you feel like the world is spinning too slow and you want to yell at everybody because they act too slow, you know you are under a lot of stress. That's why I wanna yell at that lady at the canteen who was holding my dinner in slow motion.

It's the time of the month that I need a break from everything from life.

DMD

A lovely little kid jumped into the paedi room. Supervisor told us to think about which kind of disease he has.

The child is 4 years old, not able to jump. The calf is full of fatty tissue. He got up by straightening his legs and pushed on the ground. What a typical Gower's sign.

I refused to believe that he has DMD, hoping it was something else.

My heart was broken when we read the diagnosis.

Poor kid. He followed commands very well, very active, everything was still perfect. His parents must be 100 times heart broken than I do.

Hate to experience something that we are completely out of control. Maintenance is the only thing we could do. 8-10 years later, then we have to accept that he's deteriorating.

Oh, that CTS patient, I saw her again today. We finally found out that she doesn't have CTS. And she took the advice from her doctor friend, that she's not going to have the surgery.

I didn't do it.

CTS

"...... If no progress is made with CONSERVATIVE means then surgery is indicated..."

Conservative treatment completely means physiotherapy treatment. Then since when operation becomes the only option for the patient. It was suggested and explained as the only thing the patient can do to get recover.

This is unfair to the patient because the decision is made totally not for the benefit of the patient.

According to Mr Fung, there is nothing we can do about it.

According to Dr Fu, I have one month time to explain the consequences and help to relieve the symptoms of the patient.

Exactly one month time to guide the patient to judge on the best pathway for oneself.

So worried because of the risk the patient's gonna take, which may not be realized.

Not happy, as we are not put in this picture of conservative treatment.

Weirdest thing ever.... operation in 1 month, and GA for such a small body part.

Anyways, thanks Mr Fung for guiding me through this. He really persuades me to learn. For the good of the patients, I care more and force myself not to miss anything.

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Need to be an artist to learn about the skeleton;



To know the orientation of human beings.


Some will say, "May be God is running out of ideas of how human should be made, or how the bones should be oriented."



But I will say, "May be God is very, super, tremendously organized."


The secrets of the skeleton

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That's the secret, you know?