Vivo per lei

Beautiful voices, beautiful figures.

I can watch this for 10 million times.

Cruising on the HWY

Although my dad's car is just a normal Ford, I love driving it. For some special reasons, he really likes Ford.

Haven't been driving on the highway for so long. It was the greatest feeling of all. By driving alone, meanwhile listening to my favourite music, my mind went on a retreat. It was free from stress and worries. It's like dancing in the nature, then eventually merge with it.

Thank you for giving me this chance.

Just sports

Today I went to the waterfront for a jog, where they call it the promenade. It's a beautiful description of the nice environment down there. This is actually the first time I enjoy the jog without thinking it as a torture. As a volleyball player, we are supposed to be in the game and for every minute we think about how to win that point, to win that game.

However, jogging at the promenade today brought me the experience of sports. It is the art of sports, no game. A very individual thing that you can master your own pace, plan your own route, think whatever. After the half hour jog, my mind was so refreshing. I was able to push all the negative energy out to be confident again.

In order to minimize the travelling cost, I think I should jog more at the promenade instead of going back to PolyU for gym ex.

One swollen face

Sobbed in the morning because stupid things.

It seems like the series of unfortunate events has not ended yet.

On top of the previous ones, my mp4 stopped working, the laptop was unable to connect to the internet for no reason, failed to inform someone superior when I came across a desat. patient, and the careless things in ward.

Very very low self esteem right now. I start to think that I did well before because of luck instead of competency. This is unhealthy, I understand. However, from what I observed, ppl are more confident with the exposure to the cases, but I am going the other way. This is not a comparison though.

Trying to be hopeful. By revising the careless mistakes today, I look forward to a flawless day tomorrow. But it was unsucessful.

Visiting lecture came today. I tried to hold my emotions to tell the fact, but I always slipped out something, thats why there's tears in my eyes. The thing is, I don't know what else to do to be confident again.

Went to the men soccer team practice today, Mr Mok made some comments on me. I knew those were stupid jokes, but it's not like I could take them very well with my emotional status within this period of time.

Paying the debt for the happiness I gained in summer......

Practice makes perfect

Believe in that.

In need of developing a more efficient manner to read the bednotes and understand the patients' situations and pathway.

I am allowed to be more caring in this centre. Wish I could really help out and be inspired by the beauty of humanity.

Queen Mary Hospital

My life seems colourless these days.

It seems like I don't deserve to hope for anything in this world, because life doesn't like to do me any favour.

Not like I wanna take control, I just wish things could be easier in some ways.

So that the burden on my shoulders could be lighter.

Unable to enjoy my time at in my favourite hospital.

A series of Unfortunate events

Self explanatory....

A series of unfortunate events, a series of negative thoughts.

Unfortunate things happened, and we have zero control over it. Although it did not happen on me, I am probably more traumatized by the unexpected outcome of this ridiculus world.

The red line between us, I consider it as disconnected. It's been 2 months since our last sight. Meeting expectation is too much to ask for. There won't be any disappointment when there is no hope. Therefore, it's me who has been too silly to be hopeful in issues like this. Honeymoon's over, I should be awaken and get back on earth, somewhere without hope.

It was the first time I chose a pair of shoes that I like. After around half a year, it was stolen. The pair of shoes followed me to Beijing, carried me to the journey of adventure, kept me accompanied in the greatest time with the favourite people.

What could I do?

I am sad.

A breaking news

The volleyball match over the weekend was fantastic. Although we had a messy beginning, we finally put ourselves together and won the match. We will be participating in the final match next week. Hope we'll all play well.

Night time, I planned to join the practice of Miphy's team. However, after I found out the venue, I decided not to go because I had no clue how to get there. Finally I joined my fellow classmate's hotpot gathering at the student residence. There, I talked about the experience I gained from the clinical placement. The outcome was not as expected. I was actually upset with the feedback because I didn't think I deserved that. On the other hand, I found out another breaking news about my classmate. My classmate was sick from the beginning of the placement. It's understandable that he couldn't perform as good as usual. However, I didn't think he deserved an "incomplete". I thought I like this clinical educator, but his comment to my fellow classmate was unacceptable.

I feel so sorry for him. Wish I could do something about it. I am still very mad.

Placement starts about tomorrow. I wish I can start fresh, and be confident.

A new page.