My fault

Wanna cry so bad. Very upsetting. Butterfly stomach implies the helplessness in me.

Wanna chat with someone but there's no one you wanna share things with even though there are 45 ppl on MSN.

Where is this going to take me to?

Life is very ridiculous sometimes. When I wanna make it less ridiculous, it seems wrong for other ppl.

Understood it was my fault because I understand other party's feeling. But this will solely be my fault, since other parties would not consider the concerns in me. That's why I feel heavy.

Very heavy as I am the only one to carry all the wrong-doings.