Life has been driving me crazy. The pressure is so enormous that I had never imagined that I could ever be survive in a situation like this. After all these years, I still have no clue about the reason of separation. And now, it shouldn't be called a separation because we have never been together.
Have been meaning to write something these couple of days but failed to express. Girls like to contradict themselves whenever it comes to relationship problem. On one hand, they would love to be hopeful. However, when we are mature enough, we know that things could be very out of control in split seconds.
Am I a person who is courageous enough to keep trying? I doubt it. I need a sign, a hint to lemme know we are on the same page.
Otherwise, it's back at one. The cycle starts again, pushing myself to let go.
Funny that a good friend of mine is engaging herself in a similar scenerio. Today, in the locker room, she expressed her wish from the very very bottom of her heart. What does it take to make a girl wanting to spend the rest of her life with a particular man?
At least she has the guts to say it out loud.
Have a feeling that she is going through this with me. Thank you.
PS. After his picture was sent, this little cute friend of mine shed her tears because she thought of me being happily ever after with him. What a fantastic thing to happen.. but does it sound too prefect to happen in reality?
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