Another week

The midterm feedback was no surprise. Poor time management. Cora totally understands me LOL. She suggested me to stop talking to the patients so that I can get my job done within time limit.

Conclusion: I talked too much.

Sunday is always good day. I went to the beach with the KATSO brothers and sisters for BBQ. We had so much fun together although it took us a long time to get the food and stuff. Under the starry night, we sat on the beach and talked about our future. Long has plans of being a nurse for only 5 years. And I .... couldn't make up my mind what the heck I am going to do after I graduate.

I told Long about him. He's supportive, and trying to protect me all the time.

But today, I really had a hard time to keep up. Feels like standing at the centre of a crossroad, sometimes I am too tired to be courageous all the time. At that very moment, thinking about the blurred future, there was an sms from him. My tears dropped.

When you feel like the world is spinning too slow and you want to yell at everybody because they act too slow, you know you are under a lot of stress. That's why I wanna yell at that lady at the canteen who was holding my dinner in slow motion.

It's the time of the month that I need a break from everything from life.

DMD

A lovely little kid jumped into the paedi room. Supervisor told us to think about which kind of disease he has.

The child is 4 years old, not able to jump. The calf is full of fatty tissue. He got up by straightening his legs and pushed on the ground. What a typical Gower's sign.

I refused to believe that he has DMD, hoping it was something else.

My heart was broken when we read the diagnosis.

Poor kid. He followed commands very well, very active, everything was still perfect. His parents must be 100 times heart broken than I do.

Hate to experience something that we are completely out of control. Maintenance is the only thing we could do. 8-10 years later, then we have to accept that he's deteriorating.

Oh, that CTS patient, I saw her again today. We finally found out that she doesn't have CTS. And she took the advice from her doctor friend, that she's not going to have the surgery.

I didn't do it.

CTS

"...... If no progress is made with CONSERVATIVE means then surgery is indicated..."

Conservative treatment completely means physiotherapy treatment. Then since when operation becomes the only option for the patient. It was suggested and explained as the only thing the patient can do to get recover.

This is unfair to the patient because the decision is made totally not for the benefit of the patient.

According to Mr Fung, there is nothing we can do about it.

According to Dr Fu, I have one month time to explain the consequences and help to relieve the symptoms of the patient.

Exactly one month time to guide the patient to judge on the best pathway for oneself.

So worried because of the risk the patient's gonna take, which may not be realized.

Not happy, as we are not put in this picture of conservative treatment.

Weirdest thing ever.... operation in 1 month, and GA for such a small body part.

Anyways, thanks Mr Fung for guiding me through this. He really persuades me to learn. For the good of the patients, I care more and force myself not to miss anything.

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Need to be an artist to learn about the skeleton;



To know the orientation of human beings.


Some will say, "May be God is running out of ideas of how human should be made, or how the bones should be oriented."



But I will say, "May be God is very, super, tremendously organized."


The secrets of the skeleton

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That's the secret, you know?

Long Island day trip

He thought I had work today that's why the Long D call came a little early in the morning. Love to hear his voice anyway. Thank you.

Two of my friends and I planned a trip to the Long Island today. I had been thinking of hiking since last week because of the long weekend. Wanna get my mind off from work. Get on the mountains and look at the peaceful ocean. Had a really great time with my friends today.

After walking around the hiking trail, we went down to the beach and got a taste of the fresh water from the south. The water was surprisingly not dirty at all. Ah Long and I bought a pair of very traditional sandals from the store. They were only $24 for 2. And it was the specialized green colour edition. We are very special man.

Back to work tomorrow.







Make me smarter.

Mid Autumn festival

Had a blast at the beach today. Not too hot, but got a nice tan. The breeze from the sea was wonderful. I can't keep myself from getting into the water. So refreshing. What a relaxing day!! Oh, and I had two slurpees today. Coke and a blue one, don't know what it is.

On this mid autumn festival, there were people around the area I live. I have never seen that many people in this estate before. Everybody was having so much fun with the candles and lanterns.

Under the brightest and roundest full moon of the year, I finally told someone about him.

Wanna yell out to the ocean that it's you who i miss much ......

Thoughts at night

The weather was nice last night. The view at the pier down where I lived was exactly like the picture above. By looking at the reflection of the moon from the calm ocean, I miss someone.

Thinking about the good times that we spent together, the smile was unable to be kept internal anymore. However, my tears went down as I thought of the distance and time.

It has only been three weeks, but it already feels like forever. The following 6 months is going to be the longest time ever, if we are in the same direction.

I, once again, uncontrollably allow myself to be courageous.

10am, the phone rang. His voice woke me up in this beautiful morning. He found out that a lot of people love and care of him, since he's gonna leave his current workplace. He's flattered and more sure of himself probably. I am very happy for him.

Learned a little more. A schedule is NOT enough for him. He is a very organized person. Trust me, very very organized. Likes to take charge, likes everything to be under control. Routine is very important and he hates surprises. He probably hates me then. ;) We both dislike the surprises stock market give. That's why I believe we have similar thoughts on the way we make money.

Oh... I also learned a little accident he had around 10+ ago. I feel sorry for him that he had to explain everytime. Hopefully this is not gonna create that much of a trouble for him.

I am still very thankful to talk him. Although we are very busy with our own lifes, sharing my thoughts with him is the most wonderful thing. Thank you. Thank you.

God bless him.

TGIF

The joy of "TGIF" was first felt in Hong Kong as the workload of the week reached a maximum. On this very special day, I started off with the Long D call.

Finally he got to sign the official papers so it's confirmed that he can get the new job. This relieved a lot of worries off him. I was so happy for him cos he achieved what he really wants, being a coach. As I was informed to go for the exchange program briefing, I shared this information with him. He was very happy for me too.

He started to play a little bit of golf and he enjoyed it so much. Also, he decided to rent out a room from his house to maximize the income.

So nice to talk to him. But he said he would be really busy from that time on. He would find time to keep in touch with me.

My fellow classmates organized a feast at the end of the day for the Mid Autumn festival. We invited Mr Fung to join us. We had mooncakes, pears and pomelo. Mr Fung was a funny person indeed. We had fun with him.

Watched Mamma Mia today. It was fantastic but not as enjoyable than the musical on stage for sure. I enjoy it.

Stupidity

Not a good day today.

Woke up late that I couldn't make the Long D call which I planned the night before.

Left my locker keys at home that I had to ran back upstairs to get it. There was the risk of missing the 7:10am bus.

Found out that I didn't not have money in my wallet. No money for lunch. No money for transportation.

The ankle instability was felt by my sensitive ankle before the practice. And I had a feeling that it was going to be sprained soon.

After the free ball hitting, my Rt Quad was strained. There was a painful spot at my anterolateral thigh area. So my thigh was unstable.

A ball was picked up, and I was prepared to throw it back to the coach. My leg was in a weird position. I was single leg standing, and then a twist. I fell on the ground.

Everybody just looked at me collapsed in the middle of the court. That was the most stupid moment of the day.

Then I bought a slush after practice today. Couldn't take it onto the bus, so I temporarily put it in my bag. But I totally forgot about it, and sat down. The bag was all wet and sticky. Some of my notes were contaminated as well. so stupid.

However, I had a good time today with Mr Fung. He was a very funny person indeed. A good teacher. "If it's itchy, it will be scratched. And we do that." This statement made me thought of Mr Fung cos.....

Emotionally drained

Cannot describe how much I love the work that I am doing. However, everything will be perfect if I don't have to write down everything that I do with the clients. It takes up too much of my time.

I have a documentation debt to pay everyday.

The clinical placement is bitter and sweet. Sweet is that we have a huge exposure to a variety of cases. 5 per day, that's where you learn your stuff. Bitter is that we actually don't have enough time to think, to analyze, to discuss, to document.

Emotionally drained, partially due to the coffee. However, the pace and the workload pushed me to be faster and more critical. This consumes a lot of energy because the experience we had was not prepared for this. After all patients are gone, then I have time to think through what the heck exactly went on at that time.

So exhausted particularly today, as there was vball practice after work, and no CVA cases. This reminds me how much fun I have with stroke patients. How much I dislike MSK.

Can't wait to let all the mess out of my brain. It just flooded out through the long D call. The mess is cleared, and I am reassured. Thank you so much. You're da best.

Confident I am. Competent I am. Trust in me.

Challenges begin on Mondays

After last week's private meeting with Mr Fung, I found out that he wasn't too unsatisfied with my performance. That's why I have to be better cos he may have high expectations on me. In order to enhance my learning, I have to be better. Unfortunately, that was described as "over-analyzed" by someone. He said guys are simple but girls over-analyze things.

He's right though. Thinking too much was not a good thing. It will affect my performance as well.

In reality, there is no time to think at all if you have 5 cases to handle in 5 hours, as a student. I was doing everything routinely with Musculoskeletal for the first 2 hours. Until my CVA case came, I remember how much I like to be with neuro patients, and how much I dislike MSK.

The CVA patient made my day. People said that those are the most difficult cases to treat cos there involves a lot of assessments and too much varieties. However, I found it very interesting because it's really not hard to find the impairment of patients.

This traditional Chinese man came into our clinic, yelling to his wife from time to time. Mr Fung almost took over the case for me because this was really a BIG man to handle. He taught this old man for motor control, like teaching his son. He hit on his hand, tap on his shoulder. What an interesting scene! Probably only by standing in a more superior position than him, he listens and follows the instructions. And Mr Fung knew I would not be able to lead this BIG man.

It was a very enjoyable session while I reviewed most of the stuff that I learned from extended rehab. I probably get more familiar with the neurological patients.

A tough yet happy day. BIG thanks to this BIG man. Can't stop laughing whenever I thought of him with Mr Fung.

Mike

Knowing that a friend is always there for you makes me feel good, even though he's not physically around me. We haven't seen each other since I came to Hong Kong. I love how supports me for everything, no matter what my decisions are.

This is something very precious in life that I cherish a lot.





Love ya Mike