Sobbed in the morning because stupid things.
It seems like the series of unfortunate events has not ended yet.
On top of the previous ones, my mp4 stopped working, the laptop was unable to connect to the internet for no reason, failed to inform someone superior when I came across a desat. patient, and the careless things in ward.
Very very low self esteem right now. I start to think that I did well before because of luck instead of competency. This is unhealthy, I understand. However, from what I observed, ppl are more confident with the exposure to the cases, but I am going the other way. This is not a comparison though.
Trying to be hopeful. By revising the careless mistakes today, I look forward to a flawless day tomorrow. But it was unsucessful.
Visiting lecture came today. I tried to hold my emotions to tell the fact, but I always slipped out something, thats why there's tears in my eyes. The thing is, I don't know what else to do to be confident again.
Went to the men soccer team practice today, Mr Mok made some comments on me. I knew those were stupid jokes, but it's not like I could take them very well with my emotional status within this period of time.
Paying the debt for the happiness I gained in summer......
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