Post ankle sprained depression

It's happening to me again. Every single time, I am emotionally disturbed when my ankle is sprained. It is because I wasn't able to play vball for a period of time. It's so weird. I start to worry about a lot of things in life. The stress level increased drastically and I can't help myself to stop crying.

However, I was actually surprised that a friend could see the sadness in me without knowing about my injured ankle.


Today, I went to the gym, trying to take the negative energy out of me. It went well as I tried to gain my proprioception back. Then I thought, it was impossible to carry two identities at the same time. At the moment, I was an athlete and a physiotherapist. I could be anything when I am healthy, telling people what exercise to do, telling injured athletes to rest.

However, when my leg is injured, I am predominantly an athlete. The physiotherapy knowledge was hidden somewhere in my brain which couldn't be retrieved. The only thing I know is that I WANT TO GET ON COURT AGAIN ASAP!! Training so hard, progressing some one stage to another in a fast forward mode.

Once again, I experienced the loss of balance patients could have when they have their lower limbs injured. Only after I studied to be a physio, I realized that closed eyes single leg stand is un-do-able for an sprained ankle. Damn that useless ankle.

......don't need anyone to remind me that I am stubborn....... I can't even talk myself into taking a break