Si, my head is gonna blow up soon.
Everything is back to what happened the end of January 2011. My emotion was triggered by Mav's status. Guess he returned to the status the end of Jan.
It felt like I lost someone important. Our lives go separately since the day we said our Goodbye. I tried my very best to accept what happen, and to adapt the situation. In order to do that, I will have to shift my attention to something else, a.k.a my career.
Unfortunately, my career is covered with dark clouds. If I pay too much attention on it, sooner or later I am gonna get admitted to psychiatric ward. Tears drop at around 5pm almost everyday, then headache follows.
Before, I thought life was a bit better because someone helped me emotionally to share some of my burden, and told me that everything's gonna be alright. These days, there wasn't. Therefore, work is difficult with no one to carry away the burden.
Home isn't really a shelter I wanna escape to because there is too much problem itself. Dad just said that I had too many clothes that not even a 2000 sq ft house can accommodate. In fact, I don't even have a personal wardrobe at the moment. So please stop yelling at me.
Family, relationship, work; all become a mess afterall.
Lord, everytime I close my eyes and pray, you know about my deepest feelings without me saying it even though no one around me notices. How long is this gonna last? Cos I feel very weak now with zero energy to handle, to fight...... have mercy on me
No comments:
Post a Comment